MFA


bukowski006

The Beats

Some keep trying to connect me with

the beats

but I was vastly unpublished in the

50’s

and

I very much

disliked their vanity and

all that

public

postering.

And when I met most of them

later in my life

I still felt that most of my

feelings toward

them

were the

same.

Some accepted

that; others thought that I

should change my

viewpoint.

My viewpoint remained the

same: writing is done

one person

at a time

one place

at a time.

and all the gatherings

and tenderings of

proclamations toward the

flock

has very little

to do

with anything.

Any one of those

could have made it as a

shoe salesman or a

used car

salesman.

And they still

could

instead of bitching about

the changes of the fates and

the ways

even

still

now:

From the sad university

lecterns

those hucksters of the

despoiled word

working the

hand-outs

still talking that

dumb shit.

So, alone at the house for a couple of days. This means loud music ANY TIME OF DAY OR NIGHT!!!

This morning I can’t stop dancing. Perhaps it’s my new T-shirt from the school I just got back from. Perhaps, it’s  the drumbeat that makes my shoulders begin to move.  Aw, it’s always the drum beat. A good drum beat energizes me, makes me lose myself. I love it!

Passion Pit- Eyes Like Candles

I am sorry for the creepy still photo video accompanying the song!

Am I just a ridiculous softy? Why do moments in a film hit me so hard the third time I see it? I watched the tail end of Brokeback Mountain on Bravo (of all stations) today, and this moment had me sobbing.  Black tears running down my cheeks.  Is it sad because of Heath Ledger being dead? Is it said because Jack Twist and Enis Del Mar cannot ever have the life that would have made them the happiest? Is it because I have a weird headache, pages of poetry due and I’m waiting on a book that may never arrive? My dog runs out of the room whenever I cry.  I haven’t figured out why he becomes so upset. 

But my eyeliner is indeed waterproof.

My first packet due in two weeks for my MFA program.  I am writing a poem about someone being embalmed as two people watch.  My biggest problem at the moment is trying to figure out how to get rid of the double spacing action going on.

I’ve had to do a fair amount of research.  But surprisingly I already knew a fair amount about embalming and getting a body ready for burial.  Uhhh, what does that say about me?

 Do you think my professor will like it?